I'm sorry

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And so last night i took the step, telling that we need a space for each other, holding too tight isnt the way yet i'm not like other girl would always be right there. Basically i want a stop, but i dont want to hurt you, though i know you would. I know it's my problem, the best way is to cease the chats. I wanted myself to miss you, to think back how it was ever happened.

I feel my stress melt away as i smile, and then struggle to come up with something clever but truthful. A careful response that will keep the conversation rolling yet wont cross a line into flirtatious territory. And i finally typed : dont message me these few days.

Better late than never. I hit send, then lean toward the sofa at the midnight after taken up the heavy supper. My fingers poised over the computer but didnt switch it on. My whole body alert as i anticipate his response, a moment later it comes, i knew what would he reply. I tilt my head, mouth agape as i comtemplate his precise meaning. I think of all those things he did for me, i'm guilt that i never do anything for him, i never wanted them. I wonder what it all means, it has to mean something.

I wanted the feeling back, but i failed. Am sorry.

Love,